Saturday, December 29, 2007

CONVERSATIONS WITH THE KUYAS

Conversation no.1 Noche Buena with Kuya Albert

(on childhood memories, nakaupo sa dining room, nagdadaldalan)

Kuya Albert: naalala ko dati, may lagi akong pinagtitripan nung gr.1 ata o grade 2 ata ako nun.

Ako: talaga?babae?o lalaki?

Kuya Albert: babae,si Charisse.

Ako: anong ginagawa mo sa kanya?

Kuya Albert: iniikot ung towel tapos pinapalo ko sa kanya. tapos pag may puddle of mud sa quad, tinatadyakan ko para tamaan sya. tapos nung xmas party ata un, mukha siyang santa claus na babae tapos anlaki lagi ng ribbon sa buhok, ayun,kinawkaw ko ng daliri ung pagkain niya.

Ako: e bakit mo ba kasi ginagawa un?

Kuya Albert: *says in a very swabe way* e ampanget nya eh.

Conversation No.2: Staying at home with Kuya Noel

(ako nanunuod ng korean movie sala, si kuya noel naghihiwa ng hotdog sa dining table)

Ako: *humihikbi sa isang sulok ng sofa*

Kuya Noel: umiiyak ka ba?

Ako: *hikbi pa rin, credits na un ah*

Kuya Noel: hala,umiiyak pa rin

Ako: *pinatay na ang tv,singa,punas luha,punta sa pc at tulala*

Kuya Noel: ano ba kasing storya?

Ako: *looks at kuya and cries again*

Kuya Noel: Grabe ka naman,hala hala.sarap mo picturan, tumatawa ka tapos umiiyak

Ako: *iyak pa rin at tawa*

i may hate them sometimes..but really...
they are two of the greatest reasons why i love christmas breaks. :D

11:32 PM

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Elude

Wake up, open my eyes
Literally
We need to run
Take my hand
Every place is shattering on its own
I am a child again
You are up there
Looking down on me
Your hair
Still so black in the sun
I crawl
Back to unending emptiness
I see you again
I touch you
You
Vanish just with every piece of memory
We lie on the snow
My pulse freezes with the ice
You breathe
I am warm
Able to live
You go
And back again
Don’t you remember anything?
Start
Redundancy everywhere
Your head
Lying on my heart
Listening to every beat
We pretend
He’s haunting us
Chase yesterday with me
I can’t forget you
My memory
Feeds on my emotions
Of you
Of me
Would this take long?
Grasping every strand of hope
Take me to somewhere deeper
Let us hide
In your darkest secrets
Away
Lost in trance
Forever
With you
I remember everything.

December 25, 2007
5:35 am

6:31 AM

Thursday, December 20, 2007

no,please,not him.

I was walking around USt last night with my friend.
And I told her,"pag may nakita akong kakilala kong lalaki ngayong gabi,meant to be kami."
I looked everywhere and as our walk ended, all I saw were girl friends.
So I stopped believing what I said and just went back to the field.
The night was coming to an end and we went forward to watch the band.
And just when I was already giving up, I saw him.
The person that I wasn't really expecting to show up.
I noticed him for he his place was weirdly lighten up by some light that I cannot see.

And I wasn't expecting that he would be mr.meant to be.
Oh God,I don't want this all over again.
Please stop this crazy thought before it gets worse and hurts me again.
Please,not him.
Because for the very first time, I felt that we can never be even before I feel something else.
Something useless and oh so stupid.

10:05 PM

Thursday, December 13, 2007

EMO MODE

waaahhh...,gusto ko lang sabihin...

nakakaemo ung kanta sa Enchanted na So Close by Jon McLaughlin!!!

umiiyak na talaga ako dito..tae naman!!wahooo!!
lam mo un..pag narinig mo siya..maalala mo lahat ng sad and kilig moments mo sa buhay pag-ibig!!

nangingilid na talaga luha sa mata ko...superrrr..

WAAAAAAAHH!!!i can't stop listening to it...kahit ata hindi,the song would go on playing in my mind.,.and i would still cry.

is there anyone who can save me??

waaaahhh....EMO.syet.

11:13 PM

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

thanks...Papa.

My eyes are so filled with tears and I just don't want to let them flow.

I am not like this because my papa and I had another fight but because he did something that may seem so simple to others but for me is such a big sacrifice.

You see, my cellphone wasn't already working yesterday so he said he'd have it repaired this morning for he saw me all so down and worried.

He texted me while I was in class, using another number and telling me that he lost his phone.

But do you know what the truth is?

He sold his cellphone just to have mine repaired.

And I am just lost for words for what he has done.

We may be fighting a lot these days for things he did but he just never failed to prove his love for me, at the most unexpected times.

I just wish this wouldn't just stop here.

And I wish that I could give that love back to him.

I can't stop these tears from flowing.

Thank you papa. :((

7:03 PM

Monday, December 3, 2007

crap.

I had such a great time having lunch and tomweb-ing with my friends. This could have been one of the happiest days of my week if my cellphone just didn't give up on me, if we didn't need to study for our stat quiz and if he didn't just play tricks on me.

I am so pissed off, I want to cry and and I am very sad.

Why can't I have a day that begins and ends happily? It's as if my world was turned upside down. Why does sadness always come after happiness?

AAAAArrrghhh..I don't know what to do anymore. :((

11:19 PM

Saturday, December 1, 2007

:)

i know it's just so obvious
but i would just really like to say
that having just a few minutes to talk and chat with you
takes away all the pain that was remembered
and leaves a permanent smile on my face.

thank you. :D

7:02 PM

Anne Rose Gamboa y Ocampo, the greatest pretender of all time
She is an 18 year old Filipina, born on the 27th of January,1989. When she was still a baby, she looked like a chinky-eyed lumpia child smiling at the camera while she was still staying in her luxurious incubator.

She loves chocolates, ice cream and pasta but she's very much addicted to men's perfume, pink roses and fireworks.(anong koneksyon ng pagkain sa mga bagay na un?)

Her mother prayed for her to be a girl and I have a theory she was originally a boy months before she was born, the reason why she's not so feminine.

She's very open and close to her mama and papa that's why she could spent any event and moment with them.

She was a very snobbish and nerdy kid in her early years but ever since she grew close to her loving brothers, she's changed. Now, she knows how to deal and laugh around with people,even with boys*kindat kindat*

Friendship is very important to her. She values her friends a lot for she knows that they are the greatest suprises God had given her.

Ink is flowing through her veins that's why she really wants to be a very respected journalist someday. If ever she won't have this dream fulfilled, she'd rather be a broadcaster so she could use her talent in talking.

Even though she is a very humorous person, there at times that she would just pour her heart out in one corner of the darkest room.

Rain and sappy korean movies makes her cry so if you really want to see her gloomy, watch a korean movie with her during a very rainy night.

Wants to be married to the man that God have reserved for her to spend the rest of her life with, have twins with him-a boy and a girl, and live in a simple house,with a pool.ahaha

But above all, she loves God with all of her that despite all the challenges and pain that life brought her, she will hold on to His hand till her last breath and even after.

A new start.

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